It’s been a while since I have written. I do think part of that comes from fear. Fear that I have nothing to write about as I am on a journey of rediscovery. Pressing pause and slowly discovering who I am, what drives me, and what values do I navigate my decisions. Perhaps this is all part of as I enter my 40s, having clear boundaries and making the best use of my time. I have an analytical mind, I have decided that by pausing my thoughts and quieting the inner voice more energy begins to emerge. There have been moments where I feel like God’s gentle hand is suggesting that I put pen to paper, so here it goes.
We all are here on this earth for a specific purpose, and all have a journey to share. Each journey is unique on its own. Some evolve, some stay constant, and some regress. It is not for us to judge but to simply watch from a distance.
The chronological path had phases, and each phase was unique on its own. As I enter my 40s, there is so much I wish I could go back and share with my younger self. But we can’t go backward in time we can only move forward. I feel like in my late 30s early 40s the focus is more about my values and the love that I share with those who are closest to me. Space and time is so precious and it is figuring out how to use the space and time that is the tricky balance. My husband is so important to me and amidst the craziness, I need to make that relationship number one. The time with our children too is precious making sure they hear and learn the things we want them to so that they are set up for success when they leave us. Our parents, finding and making time to be with them is important because they aging and time is not pausing for any of us. And then in all of this, having relationships that are unconditional in nature, being around people that share similar values in their lives. Values that center around family, love and kindness.
Time is like Gold, it is so precious, and how you use it makes all the difference. I have not figured everything out, I am learning as I walk on this path. What I do know, is that I deserve abundance and by quieting the voice inside my head, trusting the path is how it is supp0se to be, and focusing on the ones I love – I know that I am walking in the right direction.
I do wholeheartedly wish time would pause, but maybe it is taking the time to pause and reflect when you are in the moment that makes all the difference.