Dealing with the struggle, having Hope in the pain (summary of my journey these past two years)

These past two years have been quite the journey.   On Jan 11th, 2011, God embraced me and saved my life.  We were on a family vacation in Florida (11 of us) and the first night there, after the children were in bed, an pool accident happened and  I broke my C1 vertebrae.  Instantly, I felt that I was going to be OK, there was a reassurance present that I could not describe.  However, the next few days that followed were such a test of strength.   There is a 50% survival rate, and in most cases, people are in wheel chairs for the rest of their lives.  But God has granted me a second chance.   This last year has been a year has been a blessing all on its own.  I have come to realize that there are so many opportunities in this life to hear the voice of God and take action.  God has blessed me with so much.

The Lou Tice Institute writes: “When you find yourself overcome with feelings of fear, helplessness, doom and gloom, you can put the brakes on these feelings by gently but firmly choosing to shift the focus of the thoughts that are running through your mind.

Your feelings are a direct result of the thoughts you think, and setting aside some time every morning and evening for positive visualization, affirmation, or guided meditation is a highly effective way of getting these thoughts back under your control once again.”

My highly “guided” mediation is reliance on God.  Believe me, I would say it has been a struggle over the years to realize I am not in control.  But over the past two years God has given me a strong message.   That message is to trust fully and completely in Him.   These past two years have ranged from me nearly losing my life, to seeing my parents ill, my father in law having a 7 bypass surgery and just recently in the hospital now on going for an infection that has resulted in hip replacement surgery for a second time, to my mother going through a major surgery that nearly took her life, being diagnosed with breast cancer and now having to deal with a new way of living through the treatment.   Through all of this, God has asked me to come to Him.  I came to Him in fear, I came to  him through the struggles and always see the silver lining that He has revealed to me.

Everyone has a different approach to dealing with pain, struggle, and life.  But I have found that strength comes from a Source far greater than us.   It is learning to rely on that Source that makes all the difference.

Isaiah 40: 28-31

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

To “soar on wings like eagles” what an amazing statement.  To fly above and to have the strength and majesty to get through it all!  We all have this inside of us, take a leap of faith and trust in “Something” bigger, and grander than yourself.  It does not  matter how big or small your problem is, there is always a way.  It is finding the “way” that makes all the difference.  When you are swimming, keep swimming and keep your head above water.   Grab a surf board and surf the waves!  Yes, sometimes you will fall, but you have the strength to get up again.   And remember, there is our Divine and others to help us climb back up again.

Life is full of twists and turns, it is all how you deal with these twists and turns that makes the difference.   We all have the opportunity to make difference every day in our lives and others..   It is how we act, react, respond and spend our time that means the most in life.   Everything has a ripple effect.   I chose to live in the present and embrace the now.  I love the saying “Live in the present because every day is a gift”.  Amen to that!

3 thoughts on “Dealing with the struggle, having Hope in the pain (summary of my journey these past two years)

  1. Wow! What a story about your C1 Vertebrae, your 50% survival rate! I once did a flip the wrong way on a trampoline when I was 16 years old. I saw my life flash ahead of me as I was incapable of moving for about 10 minutes. Boy, that was scary! So cool you have your second chance. Me too!

  2. thanks again for your gift of writing and for sharing your story with us. You found me through my blog ( ) which is the story of my own struggles of suffering a similar injury as yours (we both had what is known as “jefferson fractures.”). We are both so blessed to be alive. So glad you have this place to share your thoughts with us. Love you!

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