Many times over the past few years I have felt like my ship was sinking. Sometimes, it felt like there was a hole in the sail or water was seeping through the floorboards. The wind blew so hard on the sails that I felt like I had to grab on tightly to save my life. People around me were suffering, I saw pain.
I wanted to steer the boat in a direction where there would be smooth sailing. And many times I asked, God where are you in this storm of life?
There are moments when I am just so scared, and the fear seeps in.
I have come to realize that I am not in control what happens in life to me or the ones I love.
We cannot control what happens, but we can control how we respond.
It is hard to relinquish control when you are use to being a person that just likes things “organized” or “predictable”. In this wonderful life, we are not in control of what happens to us. We are simply called to respond in a way that allows the heart to be open, to soften, to be there for the people that we love, and to support one another.
There is always going to be the rush of waves, and the storms that rage. We cannot steer the ship alone, we must give the helm to God. He wants us to come to Him, so he can give us rest. He wants us to trust that He will carry us through.
Yes my sails have gotten damaged, my boat may have pieces of paint missing, and at times I am drenched, but I know I will be carried through. The one thing that I know I can control is my response, and I do not have to come unglued in the moments that take my sails on a different course.
I know there have been times while sailing, that the ocean was as calm as can be, and the sun reached out beyond the clouds to touch and warm my face.
- Children laughing so hard their guts hurt.
- Family around a table and enjoying a meal with smiles and good food.
- Feeling the weight being lifted as I forgive the hurt.
- Being in the presence of God’s country, the deer peaking their heads through the trees.
- Getting a hug from someone I love, feeling the love so deep.
- A good laugh with a group of friends and the people I love.
- Seeing the stars sparkle in the sky.
- Hearing the words, I love you.
You see, these experiences, the waves and the storms have opened my eyes and washed away the anxious heart. They have built a stronger ship that can steer through any storm. We all have to sail the storm, but it is how we sail that makes all the difference.
We cannot control the waves or the storms, but we can definitely bring an umbrella, and hold hands in the rain.
Thank-you God for steering the helm in a direction that brings us relief. I trust in You.
May you be blessed my friend, there is always sunshine after the rain. Is there a storm you are navigating through today on your own? He is waiting for you to ask Him to steer…
One day Jesus said to his disciples, “Let’s go over to the other side of the lake.” So they got into a boat and set out. As they sailed, he fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Master, Master, we’re going to drown!” He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. “Where is your faith?” he asked his disciples. (Luke 8:22-25)