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Sometimes I want to pinch myself.
There are moments when I think to myself, is my life for real? How did I get so lucky?
I don’t know if you have these moments but for me, not too long ago, my breath was taken away by a major event. I ask myself, what got me through the moments of pain, frustration, and the surreal nature of where my life was.
We enter these places for a reason and for a season.
As the door opens into the new experience sometimes we just want to run far away from stepping through. The fear enters, the “what if” scenarios creep in, and behind the door we do not know what is waiting……
One step forward….
Each step gets easier, that is what I have found.
In these seasons where there is so much unknown, you begin to realize the moments that are tucked deep down that you may have taken for granted in the past…Those moments for me were hugs from my children, husband, and family skin to skin. A barrier in between, the halo (heavy much like the burdens I had carried for most of my life).
I held those moments in my mind, and I wanted to find my way back.
I am amazed by His Grace that has been given to me. He held me when I couldn’t hold on, and it felt like I was coming undone. He lifted me up, and helped me navigate through the pain, He gave me hope when news came that the physical healing had not happened. He promised me a life without pain as He would shelter me. All He asked was that I give it all to Him.
Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. (John 15:5)
The tree symbolizes my journey, finding my way to grow and learning how to be nourished. I still have much work to do. My mind falters, and sometimes gives in to the voices that tell me differently.
We enter these places for a reason and a season.
These places provide perspective, and always in the end, the light shines through. Leading us to a place that shows His grace, a place where we are meant to be. Along the way, the path may have some bumps and roadblocks, but the path if you are willing, can lead to feeling light. The path can lead to Him.
I am thankful for the experiences, for the miracles, and for this life (although messy at times).